Yuck.- a pity party for one

We have GOT to get out of this house or something.
I have to shake off this funk.
I don't feel horrible today, but I don't feel *good*. Lucy is bored, and therefore she is acting out left and right.
Jacob is playing nintendo, again. He's pretty mellow today, but I'm sure he wouldn't mind a change of pace.

It's raining. The park is no good.
We could go to a movie- but it's already 5. That would run too late.

Maybe a visit to Daddy at the mall. It's really far... but possibly worth it.

Remind me: Why do we live so far from civilization?

We've got lots to do tomorrow... but that doesn't help me at the moment.
Dual language testing, and then possibly hanging with some friends. Gawd, it's been ages since I've seen friends!

I'm cranky and bored, and feel yucky.
Cotton told me to quit acting like I have a chemical imbalance. Lmbo.
Umm.. true- nothing wrong chemically. (except maybe a lack of chemical- caffeine- that make me feel better!)
HORMONALLY... now that is another story, dear.
Those are all kinds of wacky. And my poor tummy is just sour. Nothing sounds good, nothing tastes good. Did I mention I'm exhausted? Yea, that too.
I have wonder-drugs for the nausea, but I'm actually not nauseated today.

My eyebrows are atrocious. Must get those waxed veryveryvery soon!
A pedicure certainly wouldn't be out of order, ether.
Maybe I'll give myself one of those tonight, since my feet will be seeing the light of day tomorrow.

Hmmmm.... I wish I were craving anything at all. Then we could just go get it, whatever or wherever it was.
It would be worth it to actually EAT a meal.

Yea, so. Tomorrow is going to be busy for once. And Friday is a very exciting day- just have to manage to get there! lol.
Well, and there is a big Gymbo sale starting Thursday. That could constitue mandatory outing. Lucy definitely needs some school clothes.
If I can just make it through this evening.
I can put the kids to bed in 3.5 hours or so... not too bad, right?
Crl up with, well... nothing edible, ick. Maybe a book.
Who am I fooling. As soon as they are asleep- I'm asleep! Lol! Gone are the days of insomnia!

Okay... that's all I can think of right now. Time to get up and DO something, anything, to kill a couple of hours. Wish me luck! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee............

bouncing off the walls

Now THIS one needs some interaction.
She craves it- and I don't have the energy to keep up with her.
As nervous as I am about shipping her off to preschool- I know it will be *fabulous* for HER.
I'll get her back, all joyful and sweet. In love with the world- just the way she always is... when she isn't BORED out of her pretty little mind.

She still talks about taking her lunch to school, though. It's like her favorite thing about school, without having ever been there.
She gets out of school at 11:30- so no lunch. But I'll be happy to pack one for her to eat on the way home (or wherever our adventures take us that day)!
She just isn't buying the "You won't eat lunch at school" line I keep feeding her. Lol. Especially since she got a new lunchbox (which was needed for the preschool she was previously enrolled in).

video games

He would play them all day long if he could.
Lucky for him- between the miserable weather and his miserable momma, he gets a lot of time to veg.
He's got about 4 weeks left until school starts, and gaming will slow down a LOT, so I leave him alone. Besides, I understand his introverted nature, and I love my solitude to read (or whatever I feel like doing ALONE). He hides in his room for half an hour, and comes out recharged.
Works for me!

Okay, I'm pretty sure, lol

That John is a girl, and Josephine and Jordan are boys.
The latter two appear to have testicles. Jordan definitely does, heehee, Josephine's are slightly less pronounced.

Jacob took the new hard. "I want John to be a BOOOOOYY...." he cried.
But he still loves him (HER son, her!) anyway- and doesn't want to give them new names.

I think that pretty much seals the deal on us keeping John. I really prefer girl kitties. They are so much more loving, and so much less likely to run off. (we've lost 2 boy kitties prior to Fiona)
Of course- Lucy is pretty darn attached to Josephine, who can easily become Joe. And can easily become less male. Poor Jordan is just chopped liver. :-(
The vet's office is going to love me, coming in with 3 or 4 cats needing the snip.

Joe's eyes are open now, and Jordan has teeny little slits at the corners- she's well on her way. They are standing up and wobbly-walking around in their box. (Note to self- get deeper box!)
I forgot just how quickly baby kitties grow up!
Before long they will be all over the house- pouncing and getting into everything. Awwww....

Today

kind of sucks.
I feel horrible. Sick to my stomach, chilly, sore, and tired.
Nothing tastes good.

The kids are behaving pretty darn well, but every time I turn around they have destroyed another room in the house.
I am making a valiant effort to keep up with them, but it's just so HARD!

Cotton told me last night "I don't remember you ever being this tired when you were pregnant before."
Ha! I didn't have a 5 year old, a 3 year old, a house under constant destruction, a huge dog, a cat that refuses to use her box...
oh, and I was, in fact, incredibly tired with the other 2. I just wasn't so BUSY- so the tiredness really didn't matter.
Now I have something I need to be doing every minute of the day, and it is EXHAUSTING!

I need some nice unhealthy fast food to weigh down my tummy today, to keep the nausea at bay for longer than half an hour. It's amazing, but the heavier, greasier foods that they say NOT to eat... yea, well- those really help. It didn't take me long at all to learn that! That nasty acid eats right through grains and veggies. Good stuff like refried beans and crispy chicken sandwiches really stick to my ribs!
I think I'll request some Bueno from my hubby when he heads home. :-P

we've got peepers!

Little John has opened his (umm.. her?) eyes!
The "girls" are nowhere near this milestone. I guess this little one was in a hurry to see the world. :-)
Jacob is thrilled!
He says "John is the biggest. That means he's bigger than the other 2."

talked to the doctor today

She didn't tell me anything that I didn't already know.
I'm still bleeding, inside of the uterus.
The bloodcot/bloodspot is about 1.5cm, and the baby at this point is the size of a lentil bean.
She said it is entirely possible that this is part of baby attaching, or that it could be something else. There is really nothing to do but wait.
I'm still on pelvic rest, and "not bedrest, but not running marathons or climbing trees." And not lifting 50lb children, if I can help it.
She said there is nothing we can do if something goes wrong, and that doesn't mean anything IS wrong, but if we're in an iffy situation- we don't want to "poke the skunk with a stick."
BUT I am staying positive. The doctor is staying positive. The ultrasound tech was very positive.

I'm still nauseated all day long. I have not had any spotting.

So... we wait. But every day that we wait is a day that baby grows bigger and stronger- and the bigger and stronger baby gets, the better our chances are.

I have another appointment next Wednesday. Until then...

Baby pictures

At long last- soe pictures of the triplets!

From top-bottom: Josephine, Jordan, and then John



Pretty Momma Fiona


Get your orders in now! Lol!

FREE DOG!!!

The not-so-little SOB (and technically he is an SOB, so there), just came into my office, lifted his leg, and whizzed about 3 gallons of pee on the pile of maternity clothes I was sorting! Grrrrrr....

The last time he peed in the house- it was on a stack of my books.

Am I extra loved, or what?
At least clothes can be washed (soaked in hot water for 30 minutes, washed on hot, and double rinsed... eeeeewwwwwwww...).

Okay folks, don't get your hopes up. He's still the best dog ever, so no- you can't have him.
But I would really appreciate it if he would NOT pee on my clothes. Ugh.

All I do lately

is EAT!!!
If I'm not eating, I'm nauseated.
It's kind of awful, even for someone who LOVES to eat under normal circumstances. Jeeeeezzz.....

I just finished off a bowl of Cheerios with blueberries and hour ago, and I can feel that sickness creeping in. Time to eat again to stave it off.

I think I'll finish off that jar of olives that I started (aka- tore through the majority of) yesterday. Mmmmm... olives....

it's been way too long!

Aaaahhhh... it feels so good to be back!
Above all else internet-related, I have missed my blog!

My fabulous new best friend in the world, Melissa, fixed my "problem child" (aka my computer- if you're a little slow) right up for me!
I would offer to repay her with my firstborn, but I think she has enough children! heehee

Lots and lots has happened in the past couple of weeks.
I'll try to give you he condensed version.

After a VERY worrisome ultrasound, and a slight internal bleed- I have been sitting around worrying for 2 weeks if I'm really going to have a baby this spring after all.
Yesterday we went in for a follow up ultrasound, and saw the most beautiful little bean- complete with a teeny flickering firefly of a heart beating.
I'm not officially "out of the woods" until "the baby gets bigger than the bleed." I wish I understood more of what was going on in there- but the baby is attached and growing, and the doctor says that I really needn't worry. It's just that she can't "officially" give me an all clear at this time...
But the baby looks GREAT, and I am progressing right along with all the nasty old pregnancy symptoms you can think of. Oh, and I am 6 weeks along at this point. Very strange, considering that I know when my last period was, and even have a very good idea of when I ovulated- I should be 8 weeks!
But, as long as baby is growing properly- my little firefly can be on any schedule that he or she likes.
I have every reason to start buying maternity clothes and stockpiling new baby goodies!
The kids are obsessed with their new baby- they carry around the ultrasound picture, and love to "buy the baby something" every time we go shopping. So far, baby has a SpongeBob outfit, a pair of teeeeeny red crocs, a picture book, a yellow duck gown, a bib saying "I love my big sister," and one saying "I love my big brother."

Shopping is kind of tough when you don't know the gender- but we are shopping pros over here. We manage! Lol!

And while we're on the pregnancy subject- Tish has apparently sailed right through her first trimester! She's hit that magical 13 week mark!
Now the fun begins- the baby bump, the feeling good, the eating for 2, heehee, the shopping for new clothes, the big sonogram, the buying teeny clothes...!
She is supposed to come show me pictures of my niece or nephew when she gets off of work today! Yay!
(and can I just say how JEALOUS I am!? I want to be 13 weeks!)

And as for the other pregnant chick in my life- Fiona is now the proud mommy of triplets!
They were born at some point between July 15-19, while we were out of town. Of course.
There are 2 beautiful orange and white mini-Fionas: Josephine and Jordan. And a smoky gray tabby: John.
I can't actually tell what gender they are (such teeny little parts- and they all look the same to me), but Jacob named John and Josephine, and I helped him with the last one's name a bit. :-)
As soon as I download some new photo editing software- I'll share baby pictures!

HARRY POTTER!
I thought I was soooo LUCKY to have pre-ordered my book. No standing in line at midnight, no rushing out to find a copy.
Well, at about noon on Saturday I was not feeling lucky. I was feeling anxious and MAD!
Millions of people everywhere were already reading, and I was at home, sick and bored- checking my doorstep and mailbox every 30 minutes.
It finally came at about 2:15, while I was in the midst of cooking and preparing for company. Niiiice.
Cotton chased our company off at about 9, saying (thank goodness) "Sorry y'all, but my little wife has a book that she's been waiting a long time to read!" I know I married him for a reason! He may not get the Harry craze, but he indulges me!

Harry is a really nice name for a boy, no?
Too bad Cotton doesn't agree. :-(
And on that note- this baby had better be a girl. Boy names are really eluding us at the moment!

So now all I have are the next 2 movies to look forward to, and then the Potter phase of my life will be finished.
Speaking of that- I need to BUY the movies. Jacob would love to see them all in order. I don't think he's ready for the books- far too dark for a tender and sensitive soul like him, not to mention too long to read to him. But the movies would be okay...

Miss Lucy is all enrolled at her new preschool.
In light of recent changes our family is making, and because I want to stay closer to Jacob- I was thrilled to find a school MUCH closer to home that offers the kind of education, and the kind of hours, I am looking for.
I haven't pulled her out of the other preschool *just yet*, but once I go to the parent meeting and meet her actual teacher, I think we'll go ahead and commit fully.
Her spot is saved and paid for- it's just a matter of pulling her from school #1 at this point.

Miss Lucy. My baby joy.
One of these days- I really am going to change her name to Lucy Joy. Just you wait!

Her newest phrase is by far the truest thing she's ever said.
I love it. I want to tattoo it on her!
"I'm gonna do it my own way!"
She said that about 3 times yesterday, and once today.
Has there ever been any thing more LUCY than that? I think not!

Jacob is completely obsessed, and on cloud nine, with the Nintendo Game Cube that Uncle BJ gave him.
OMG. It is almost pitiful.
And he has gotten GOOD! Really good! Kids are just amazing. He is so much better at controlling that thing than I am. Cotton has been putting in some practice time, and I laugh as I type this: They are pretty evenly matched.
Thay play Cars, and it's about 50/50 on who wins the races. Lol.

We are getting geared up for school.
Both kids have new backpacks and new lunchboxes (although Lucy doesn't actually need a lunchbox). We still need to make a school clothes and tennis shoes trip, but since somebody decided to cheat my husband out of 26 hrs of overtime (long story for another day), those will have to wait 2 more weeks.
Jacob goes next week to test for the Spanish immersion kindergarten class. I am nervous- but will be shocked if my little brainiac doesn't get in.

I am not weepy over the impending school year... not yet.
I have been trying not to think about it.
Miss baby will only be going for 6 hours a week, and I can watch her online all day if I want. They have cameras everywhere in that school.
Jacob... well... I think everyone knows how I feel about 40hrs a week of kindergarten. I am still not thrilled. And I am still perfectly willing to homeschool, should it come to that. But we are going to give it a good old try. And I'm sure my little guy will be fine. I may get arrested for peeking in the windows, but he'll be fine. :-(

A big HELLO to Shaun!
Cotton and I both were shocked that you even knew about the blog! Lol!
Thanks for coming out of the closet! I will definitely hit him for you when he gets home, for not telling you about the baby, although in his defense- with the bleeding and all, we have been kind of hush hush for the past couple of weeks.


Okay, my loves. Nausea and dizziness are kicking in. Time for me to eat and lie down for a minute.

my first official craving!

drum roll please...





ONION RINGS!

I saw a commercial for Whataburger, which never showed a hint of an onion ring, 2 nights ago.
As I lay on the couch I thought "Mmmmm... that burger looks good. But it would look better with some onion rings!"
Yesterday came and went, I still want onion rings, but I never got any.

Today it is almost painful. I NEED onion rings!
I foresee a little jaunt to Sonic in my very near future!

Nintendo Gamecube

has taken over my house.

That's all I have to say about that. (for now)

OMG do you even know

how STRESSFUL it is to erase everything on your computer?

I spent HOURS and hours backing up all of my pictures to CDs.
And by the way, here's a PSA!

PSA: Back up your pictures often! Do not wait until your computer is on the verge of dying and you have to save THREE YEARS WORTH as quickly as possible!

And I honestly feel lucky to have gotten them all. I've heard the horror stories.
Man that could have so easily been ME! Crying for days because every last baby picture, every vacation picture, every EVERY picture was gone.

But they are safe and sound! I checked and double checked every disc before I was able to let go of the hard drive.

And I seem to be abck online for real.
I can go to any webpage I like. I can see images and everything. No pop-ups.
Life has resumed.

I guess it's time

past time, probably, for me to blog the big news.
The huge, wonderful, exciting, absolutely fabulous news!

I'm having another BABY!!!

That's right- a new little bun in the oven. A sweet little bundle of joy, due around March 3rd!

So there. I'm out of the pregnant closet. :-P

Let the preparations begin!
Considering the fact that my dear husband has sworn up, down, and sideways that we were done making babies- I got rid of nearly every scrap of baby stuff in the house.
Time to SHOP! (and gosh darn it, I hate that, dontcha know? lmbo)

I had a little ultrasound today, and baby was ummm... invisible. Too tiny to see.
But the egg sack was really cute. Teehee.
I was actually quite bummed, and walked out of there with my stomach in my throat. The girl had to ask at first if I was actually pregnant :-(
She did find the little egg thingy, though, so there was that...
But a nice talk with a fabulous midwife calmed my fears a lot. And I am DEFINITELY pregnant. I have tons of evidence! 4 positive tests to start with, umm... about 2 1/2 weeks late for the old beeyotch, constant and BAD boob pain, lots of trips to the bathroom, gagging at the smell of coffee, oh and here's a big one: this little insomniac is flat out CRASHING into bed around 10PM every night! I mean, wtf is up with THAT? I just can't keep my eyes open any later!

so YAY! Now, if there is anyone that doesn't know NOW- they must surely be living under a rock or something!

And now I'm off to bed! YAWN!

alive, alive

I am in fact ALIVE over here!
I couldn't say as much for my computer this last week- but I think we are up and running pretty well. Cross everything, please! Lol!

Lots to update- but not tonight.
I've got lots of emails and DAM to catch up on!

Love to all!